So as praise and worship was going there was this release of dreams and ideas and I just pulled out my Blackberry and started writing as furiously as I could - not quite sure how or what to do with all of it, but excited because I haven't had a dream in a long time. Not much of anything sparked my interest or elicited my pursuit... the last time I felt a dream was when I wanted to be a vet tech and that fizzled out behind the reception desk. For the longest I wondered if the dream fizzled out due to opposition, but this weekend I was sparked alive by tons of other things I wanted to do with my life and working at a vet clinic didn't even cross my mind.
And it's ok, everything is in seasons. There's a season to focus on career and there's a season to focus on parenting... there's a season for everything and right now I feel I'm entering into a season to focus other passions and desires that I had buried or neglected due to being a non-stop industrial machine of housekeeping and working.
So some of the things I jotted down were:
Drama/dance ministry with kids after school, like in some sort of afterschool program?
If Aspen were a therapy dog, what would we do together?
A degree from Bible college/university? In Counseling? Bible? Performing Arts?
Lord, give me my dream for now, for 3 years from now, for 5 years from now. Give me dream and passion to pursue You and further Your kingdom work.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses
We are surrounded by the men and women of faith in Hebrews 11, who are spurring us on because what they saw in pieces they testify we can now experience fully!
let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.
We have the power to just repent and throw off everything that has us tangled in the things not from God. Why? So we can just run!
And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,
Run with perseverance. Don't strive, wrestle after it, or struggle with it. Just keep running! Running doesn't give you the chance to second guess, look back, or pick up the things you've tossed off.
fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.
Fix your eyes on Jesus! He overcomes the obstacles that could slow you down with his gaze of love.
Lord forgive me for not fighting through my illness to do Walk for Life, or coming to pray with 40 Days For Life. I understand my faithlessness now.
For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God
I am the JOY that helped Jesus endure the cross. He scorned shame - He defeated it, doesn't want me to feel it or act like I have anything to be ashamed of. He only looks at me with JOY.
I'm not an orphan anymore. I have lived all my life as if I had to raise myself. I have a Daddy to nurture me and build me up. He will be with me and support me on my dream and help me grow. I can build my dream in His lap, hash out what it would look like. I need to go through my schedule and see where I can spend time with Him... Probably in the morning.